what parents are

I was just finish watching a korean drama, 'Shining Inheritance' or in hangeul 찬란한 유산. it was such a good drama, heart warming, with a lot of norms and values contained in it.

one of the best lesson told there was:

there was a son trying to sell his father's heart.
he took it away and was running away
but he fell down.
he dropped the heart on the ground
the heart, covered in dirt, said... 'child, are you okay?'

that's what parents are

an unconditional love

most of the children don't realize the parents' love towards their children,
including me.
the story told in the drama taught me about it, even though little by little.
hopefully i'm heading to be a better child.

Unveiling the Sixth Sense

Actually, I've watch this last semester at my Entrepreneurial class. but it's worth sharing.
credits: www.Ted.com

"This demo -- from Pattie Maes' lab at MIT, spearheaded by Pranav Mistry -- was the buzz of TED. It's a wearable device with a projector that paves the way for profound interaction with our environment. Imagine "Minority Report" and then some." Ted conferences, LLC, 2009.

It's unbelievably significant, rite? the fast forward of technology. Gosh. and the guy is genius.
we could even scan everything to help us make decisions for everything. even the tiny lil' thing.
It happens by the miracles of internet. i can't imagine how life would be without internet.

Quotes time

My friend, who's feeling blue, has a hobby to make quotes of his life. and he gave me these quotes made by him:

credited: Rendra Ferdian

Who do you turn to when the only person in the world that can stop you from crying is exactly the one making you cry?


I'm convincing myself, yes I'll find someone new, I won't be alone, and I won't be with you... You're waiting for me, to crawl back to your side but no..not this time, I'm keeping my pride .. So goodbye forever, I'll be on my way, It's gonna take time, but I'll be okay


I thought I was finally getting over him and actually believing I didn't love him anymore, I was finally excepting the fact that I couldn't have him and that I didn't want him, but then... he smiled and ruined it all


Someday you'll cry for me like I cried for you...
Someday you'll miss me like I missed you...
Someday you'll need me like I needed you...
Someday you'll love me BUT I won't love you!

boy : i saw her today
girl: i saw him today
boy : it seems like its been forever
girl: i wonder if he still cares
boy : she looks better than before
girl: i couldnt help staring at him
boy : i asked her how things were going
girl: i asked about his new girlfriend
boy : id choose her over any girl i'm with
girl: hes probably really happy now
boy : i couldnt look at her without starting to cry
girl: he couldnt even look at me
boy : i told her i missed her
girl: he doesnt miss me
boy : i meant it
girl: he didnt mean it
boy : i love her
girl: he loves his new girlfriend
boy : i held her for the last time
girl: he gave me a friendly hug
boy : then i went home and cried
girl: then i went home and cried
boy : i lost her
girl: i love him *(credit: internet)

It's hard to tell your mind to stop loving someone when your heart still does


to Rendra.... thanks for the quotes.... and lets laugh at our stupidity.

what's written on a truck

today i saw my facebook friend's page. and i found this as his status updates.

kata2 di mobil truk?

1. kutunggu jandamu
2. cintamu tak semurni bensinku
3. pergi karena tugas..., pulang karena beras...
4. besar di rantau..., tua di jalan...
5. selingkuh tak selamanya indah
6. JANGAN DINIKAHI BILA SEGEL RUSAK
7. mencari nafkah demi desah *WTF? LOL*
8. tak sehina yang kau duga
9. Biar Miskin Asal Sombong

hahahaha interesting!

credits: chachu uchu@fb + nawir cozy @fb

my soundtrack of the day

What day is it today? i can't remember
i'm still lazying around at home. browsing. watching. and facebooking

currently i'm listening to Tohoshinki's 'Stand by You' song.
and it just match my current feeling right now!!! my current condition. bleh~~~
here it is..



cre: chocojournal @youtube

the english translation:

Stand By You - Tohoshinki

Since the day you left without a word of goodbye
I feel that the scenery around me has changed.
The promise I made
that I would become your everything
and the incomplete memories
have also changed.

When you were crying by yourself back then,
if only had I run to you
you would still be by my side.
If I was given one more chance,
I would tell you once again
that I love you.
But the words that contain my overflowing feelings
cannot reach you anymore.

Where are you now?
Who are you being with?
What kind of clothes are you wearing?
What are doing and laughing at?
I am right here.
Even now, I am right here.
And I still believe that we will see each other again.
You're the only one I'm thinking of.

Just once more,
I want you to stand at my back with your tied hair
asking me "Guess who it is~~~"
and expecting me to say out your name.*
Just the two of us being silly like that day by day.

I can't forget you,
But the truth is, I don't want to forget you.
I can't feel even a bit of happiness
because you're not by my side.
No matter how hard I try,
I'll end up crying
and my tears just won't stop.

Where are you now?
Who are you being with?
What kind of clothes are you wearing?
What are doing and laughing at?
I am right here.
Even now, I am right here.
I still believe that we will see each other again.
You're the only one I'm thinking of.

Therefore, I am right here
singing the song by myself.
Even though I don't have any reason to embrace this pain anymore,
I can't help doing it.

Even if I know that the days
when you were by my side making my world shine
won't come back again,
and no matter what will happen,
no matter how far I'm lost,
I never ever want to forget that my heart has chosen to love you.

No matter where you are,
no matter who you are being with,
no matter what kind of dream you are dreaming of,
or what you are doing and laughing at,
I will be here forever.
Even now, I right am here,
believing in a day that we will meet again.

This feeling won't change,
and you are the only one I'm thinking of.
This feeling won't change,
and you are the only one I'm thinking of.


credits: linhkawaii @LJ + tvxqfever.blogspot + dbskarchives.blogspot

Hi-C stands for Hip-Chic!

During holiday, i gathered with my high school friends a lot.

we went shopping, watching movie, photo taking, driving around town, gossiping, eating, and hang out at a cafe and just chill around.


(left to right) Astri, Alfie, Me, Uni, Rieska, Kiki
we're here to plan the photo taking. Yes, we luv photography (but only with us as the models) LOL


(left to right) Tirta, Alfie, Uni, Me, Qbond
Qbond will be going outside town. we hang out to cheer her up for her school project there.

here's the photo taking. these are not the professional ones. they were taking by my friend's sister.
the professional results will be posted once i got them


left to right:
Dinie, Rieska, Me, Uni, Ama, Qbond, Alfi, Astri, Ayu Ning, Tirta, Kiki
location: Makassar, Indonesia





We're Hi-C!!! abbreviation of Hip-Chic
my high school clique ^o^

there're 11 members (sorted by alphabetic)
Alfie
Ama
Astri
Ayu-Ning
Dinie
Kiki
Tirta
Neong (Me)
Qbond
Rieska
Uni


I also hang out with my high school buddies: Rendra, Aldy, and my secondary school friends. *will be updating with pics soon when the pics in my hand*

Holiday, I got a confession!

My school holiday is over. but the memories left behind is still in my head.

I went back to my hometown during school holiday.
it was so fun, yet heartbreaking at the same time.

I went back, gathering with my family, friends, and all my lovely peeps.
there are so many things happened. okay, let me reveal my secrets here.
something that my family don't know, which i feel sorry about.

I got a crush (again) with my ex. The only ex-boyfriend that left a deep foot print in my heart (LOL...what a cheezy line)
okay, the thing is, he already got a girlfriend. no. it's a fiance

whatever, i don't care. as long as he's not married yet, there's no boundary between us, and i can still talk to him.

i got a confessions to make. we kissed. we hugged. we say love to each other.

but it hurts. because he still loves me, but he also loves her. he has this 'up & down, hot & cold' attitude. Sometimes it's okay if i come next to him, but sometimes he declare that he's already someone else's, and i'll get a better guy than him.

I can feel that he keep a distance with me. after they exchange rings.

there are may times i have to holding back my tears, especially when he calls that girl (that girl live in another city. she's a flight attendant), that girls' families. and he without hesistation talking freely in front of me!!! without any considerations of how i feel.

when it was my birthday, 26th May, he didn't say any birthday greetings. He said, that girl knows my birth day, and she made him promise her that he won't say, text, or any form of congratulatory on my birthday!!! how mean!!!

when it was his birthday, 30th May, she came for 2 days, and i can't see him. and i can't celebrate his birthday.

I felt so lifeless

He was my high school boyfriend. I was with him for almost 4 years (with break up and make up). I broke up because I left for Singapore. somehow i feel boredom, and yeah, i kinda left him because we had a big fight and i have this strong reason why i wanted to break up with him.

That girl was a friend of him who he talked to when i let him down.

before going back from Singapore, I called him. I miss him. then he announced that he's gotta engaged. I cried to him (i know it's not my right to complained), but he said apologies. and he said he wanted to see me. I ask him to pick me up at the airport, he agreed.

the next day, i called him. i miss him. i can't wait to see him again, and i know i ruined my exams because i can't stop crying all night because his stupid girlfriend picked up my call, and i have to talk to him awkwardly and said 'u don't need to pick me up' (shoot!!! why does this happen! and at this time!??!!)~and his GF doesn't know our dialect, so he told her a lie about what i've been talking about (she turned on his phone loudspeaker).
i dunno whether i should feel sorry about that girl or juz ignore her. She send me messages from his facebook account not to disturb him anymore. again, i don't care.


i dunno where this thingy leads to, but i will just continue. Let the time lapse and show the result.


I'm in love with my own sins
i don't care what other people say. but i know i have to end this at some point of time.
in the end, i never see him anymore since the day he told me to accept the reality that he belongs to somebody.

I'm glad that he said that, showing that he won't easily playing with 2 hearts at the same time.
of course, it's hurt. but i know, i don't wanna be treated like that girl.
I put my feet on that girl's shoes. if i have a boyfriend, i don't want him to be like that.

I should sincerely let him go, eventhough i know it's not easy.
I dunno, whatever meant to be, will be.
so, I dun hella care!!!